Blah.

I do not know what to write. However, I do know I want to write. Isn't that annoying?
I have had a lovely week,theoretically. It has been far from what I expected. In a good way. I think.
Shortcuts don't work. Trying to cheat the system leads you back to the start. But I'm not going to dwell in this. This is me being decisive. That's a first. I feel like I say this a lot, but I realllly wish I could articulate the 'blah' in my head, right now.
Time is a healer, but if you sit and do nothing, it will too. You've got to utilise time. Sometimes it's hard for you to do that when you think you'd like to live in tommorow. But tommorow has it's own problems. Not to sound pessimistic, it has loveliness too, but what I think I mean is, you can't leave todays issues to be dealt with tommorow. It may seem like it'll be easier then, but it's like a workload, if you're given a piece of work to do and you leave it till tommorow when you think you'll have more time, you may by then have another piece of work and so in the end you work out having less time for both, pretty much due to procrastination. Which, as I have previously established, is something I am extremely guilty of. You sometimes have to learn the hard way, sometimes it's the only way. It sucks, but at the same time it doesn't.
Please, don't be fooled by my use of second person pronouns, this is, in fact, quite a personal address. It just works better when I read it back, if you understand that?
I think I'm ok now. For why shouldn't I be? Of course, rhetorical. You don't know. I sort of do. God sure does. Simple..kind of.x

This week..

..has been really lovely! And now I'm sat, admiring the sunshine.
This day is a very central day, I feel, so before I was wondering if I would prefer for it to be a week later or a week earlier than it actually is. Either way I wouldn't be so close to next week, if that makes any sense. But I mean, do I want to skip this week or for it to be just further away? Then I just happened to read this poem from a new book that my Mum has just bought, and it answered my question, but it was more like a 'fresh revelation' as oppose to a 'new idea'. I already knew, sometimes you just need to be reminded. I'll just share with you stanza 6 that pretty much sums up the moral:

'Trust no Future, howe'er pleasant!
Let the dead Past bury its dead!
Act - act in the living present!
Heart within, and God o'erhead!'

S'good that, isn't it? I know it's only a little Saturday in May, but I'm gonna make today fun, in some way or another. Hey, looks like I may have just talked myself into even more procrastination. It just happens. I can't help it anymore.

I may aswell add one more paragraph now, so as not to seem hyprocritical, haha! I'll expand on my week being 'lovely'. This is what I have done:
On Monday I went to Frederick's Ice cream parlour and then watched 'The Holiday' with my best friend.
On Tuesday I had my pancake making connect group and then went camping - which was so good! Obviously this continued into..
Wednesday, then after we eventually took down the tent, I went to watch another film with my two 'sisters' - 'The Devil Wears Prada'.
Then I spent Thursday at the centre, being slightly musical - always fun, always good company!
And Friday I shopped, only a little, pennies restricted me, of course. And the weather was splendid. And now here I am, and the weather remains.
This pathetic fallacy lark is in tact. Splendid.

One more. Last one, I promise:
I'm appreciating Brooke Fraser more than ever recently, her lyrics are so beautiful. This week the one floating around my head has been:
'You're ruining me with secrets, and gestures, and looks'
How lovely is that? Very lovely. Mmm, lovely ;) X

Chewy, foamy mushrooms..

..are so good, that I believe they deserve to be the main topic of my first 'proper' blog. I suggest you purchase some, from Asda. You've gotta love Asda. Well, I do.
I'm stalling right now, because I should be working. But, oh well. It'll all be over soon. I love that. I'm giddy excited for what is to come, just in general. I hope summer is splendid. I feel like it will be. Let's pray for literal pathetic fallacy then. I'm using literary techniques in juxtaposition with an attitude of aloof for effect. I feel like it's working quite well. Or maybe I just look silly. There's a fine line isn't there?
'Something unusual, something strange, comes from nothing at all'. I like this song, I like that shuffle has selected it for me. Fits my mood. Wow, look at the time. My procrastinating nature has got the better of me, yet again. X